Saturday, December 18, 2004
~NeVeR BeEn HaPpIeR~
results came out earlier than scheduled...juz really very glad that i made it thru.. it's too traumatic bec i have not much confidence, really have to depend on moderation.. every sem, i tell myself that i must view my results with confidence.. it's really hard.. that day, Dr Daniel mentioned about the long procedure from marking the scripts to getting the final mark after moderation..n that's why reviews dun usually get thru... it's a brand new start for next sem, hopefully that's the last for me..yesh!! it will be the last for me!
one last hurdle this week, my ge exam...
learnt that emotional development is a very deep subject.. can only master it bit by bit thru experience, this course is juz to prepare me for the working world out there.. things are usually easier said than done, unless one can put oneself into the shoes of other pple.. i may think someone has low integrity, but what will i do if i am in his position? and yes.. humans are selfish to some extent... it's not easy to be selfless, i'm not even sure if i can do it always... one can start out as being selfless, but if pple start to take advantage of ur selflessness, will u still be selfless?.. u have to be selfless and yet defend urself from these suckers.. another scenario: some one u really dun like comes to u for help, will u help? will u let ur emotions control u or will u help because ur principle tells u that u must be selfless? if u let ur principle rules, that's good emotional development.. but i'm sure if the situation is life-threatening, ur principle will dominate without considering ur emotions... hatred doesn't even exist at that moment.
rem the environment changes pple...
my ia colleague always says to me: "now u look innocent, a few more yrs into the working world, u'll be very money driven, maybe status too" Competition changes pple, yet pple have to stick to their principles despite competition, that's the hardest thing to do.. a bit contradicting as well... like it or not that's the way of working life.. full of contradictions..
sometimes i can be a vampire... think everyone also.. since no one is perfect...
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Evelyn winks
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